[ Cullen wears an awkward, forced smile at that. He's quite embarrassed, really, because it is true that they hadn't known each other well enough to provoke such opinions, really. That's the reality of the matter, but certainly not how he felt at the time. ]
I didn't have many friends back then. Becoming close to your comrades should be common, but it is when I was stationed in Kinloch that I found difficulty in such things. I couldn't tell you what it was that deterred me... Perhaps the likelihood of being separated caused a sort of disconnect among all of us.
And I should have met you with the same thought, especially given that you were my charge.
I'm... Not sure what happened. There was something about you that, even now, I cannot touch and begin to understand.
[ Even explaining it, he finds embarrassment in it. Truly, he should have maintained a more professional stance back then. But he was foolish and young, and she was kind and beautiful. Though he won't say that aloud. ]
What I believed was foolish in my youth, but I find that they were strong enough emotions that they became cemented in my growth. While I never envisioned you as a angered spirit, your face certainly remained prominent in my mind. As did your possible opinion of me.
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[ Cullen wears an awkward, forced smile at that. He's quite embarrassed, really, because it is true that they hadn't known each other well enough to provoke such opinions, really. That's the reality of the matter, but certainly not how he felt at the time. ]
I didn't have many friends back then. Becoming close to your comrades should be common, but it is when I was stationed in Kinloch that I found difficulty in such things. I couldn't tell you what it was that deterred me... Perhaps the likelihood of being separated caused a sort of disconnect among all of us.
And I should have met you with the same thought, especially given that you were my charge.
I'm... Not sure what happened. There was something about you that, even now, I cannot touch and begin to understand.
[ Even explaining it, he finds embarrassment in it. Truly, he should have maintained a more professional stance back then. But he was foolish and young, and she was kind and beautiful. Though he won't say that aloud. ]
What I believed was foolish in my youth, but I find that they were strong enough emotions that they became cemented in my growth. While I never envisioned you as a angered spirit, your face certainly remained prominent in my mind. As did your possible opinion of me.
I assure you, it is all my fault. Not yours.