I've heard... Remarks. That I have abandoned The Order, as if I should be ashamed of myself for doing so. And perhaps I might be, even just a little.
[ The smile turns into a frown, where his gaze looks down to their hands. He quite likes the sight of them, and has always found comfort in it each time they've been like this. To physically be reminded that Neria is alive and well helps keep him on the right side of reality. Maker knows he has doubted even his own existence during the worst of his withdrawal episodes. Perhaps that is why he's been more physical with her than he ever thought he might be. But Neria seems to find just as much comfort in it, and for that he is grateful. ]
When I was a boy, all I wanted was to help people. To become a Templar and bring pride to my family's name. It was so different back then...
My heart still breaks to know that The Order in which I found so much pride in has been tainted with corruption. Were I able to change things, I would do everything in my power. But such things are not possible, not now.
[ Cullen's gaze meets with her's once more, locked and bearing as much of a calm demeanor as he can. He is touched by her offer, but he isn't certain he is quite prepared to accept the use of magic to ease his pain. There is immediate guilt in such a thought-- Surely, he trusts her. But what if... ]
Your presence by my side is more than enough, my lady. While I found pride in maintaining the troops on my own, I am glad we've accepted your help. And I am proud to work beside you, as equals.
I promise, you need not worry about me. I'm not going anywhere.
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I've heard... Remarks. That I have abandoned The Order, as if I should be ashamed of myself for doing so. And perhaps I might be, even just a little.
[ The smile turns into a frown, where his gaze looks down to their hands. He quite likes the sight of them, and has always found comfort in it each time they've been like this. To physically be reminded that Neria is alive and well helps keep him on the right side of reality. Maker knows he has doubted even his own existence during the worst of his withdrawal episodes. Perhaps that is why he's been more physical with her than he ever thought he might be. But Neria seems to find just as much comfort in it, and for that he is grateful. ]
When I was a boy, all I wanted was to help people. To become a Templar and bring pride to my family's name. It was so different back then...
My heart still breaks to know that The Order in which I found so much pride in has been tainted with corruption. Were I able to change things, I would do everything in my power. But such things are not possible, not now.
[ Cullen's gaze meets with her's once more, locked and bearing as much of a calm demeanor as he can. He is touched by her offer, but he isn't certain he is quite prepared to accept the use of magic to ease his pain. There is immediate guilt in such a thought-- Surely, he trusts her. But what if... ]
Your presence by my side is more than enough, my lady. While I found pride in maintaining the troops on my own, I am glad we've accepted your help. And I am proud to work beside you, as equals.
I promise, you need not worry about me. I'm not going anywhere.