You didn't abandon the Order. The Order abandoned its people when it ceased caring about its charges and its soldiers. You have done nothing reprehensible.
[ If he had stayed, he could have been like them, like the other soldiers turned into monstrous creatures. That thought alone leaves her cold and she twines their fingers together even as she shakes her head. She can't imagine it. She can't. It's despicable enough that they have to fight some of his former comrades, even if he never met them personally. She can't allow herself to imagine what it might have been like in another time, another world, if he hadn't left. ]
Perhaps, when this is over...
[ But when the war is over, she will leave. That is to be expected. She pushes that aside. ]
I'm glad you're here with us. With me. I wouldn't have been able to do any of this without you.
[ Not without his comfort or his strength. He has had faith in her when she had none of it for herself. ]
The offer is open, if you ever need anything. As I said, I know a few potions and tonics that can help with the symptoms, if nothing else.
[ Maker knows she's needed to use them for her own troubled sleeping and difficult days. She sighs, looking briefly down at their hands to assure herself that what he says is true. He isn't going anywhere. He will be fine. ]
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[ If he had stayed, he could have been like them, like the other soldiers turned into monstrous creatures. That thought alone leaves her cold and she twines their fingers together even as she shakes her head. She can't imagine it. She can't. It's despicable enough that they have to fight some of his former comrades, even if he never met them personally. She can't allow herself to imagine what it might have been like in another time, another world, if he hadn't left. ]
Perhaps, when this is over...
[ But when the war is over, she will leave. That is to be expected. She pushes that aside. ]
I'm glad you're here with us. With me. I wouldn't have been able to do any of this without you.
[ Not without his comfort or his strength. He has had faith in her when she had none of it for herself. ]
The offer is open, if you ever need anything. As I said, I know a few potions and tonics that can help with the symptoms, if nothing else.
[ Maker knows she's needed to use them for her own troubled sleeping and difficult days. She sighs, looking briefly down at their hands to assure herself that what he says is true. He isn't going anywhere. He will be fine. ]