[ It hurts, everything hurts and he's afraid that one of these days he will not make it out of this. That he will die for a cause that has cared little for him and his comrades. All Cullen wanted to do was serve, to help people, and for what? To be held by a tight leash for an Order that sees fit to off the innocent and their sympathizers? Neria has always been a symbol of all of that, even a beacon. ]
[ She is right. He knows in his heart that she is right that he does this for a greater cause. But to know that he might affect the Inquisition in a negative manner hurts him far more than the pains that wrack him. Yet it isn't just Neria that has faith in him, as Kaia has said much the same. They all support his decision, do not believe that he is causing problems within the cause and he trembles in belief that he does not deserve such valuable friends. When Cullen looks upon Neria and sees such concern and passion in her eyes, he thinks to himself that he hardly deserves her companionship either. ]
[ But she stops him from moving towards the vial, brings him to find balance against the wall again where their hands entangle and latch as they always have. Still, there is hurt in his eyes, and doubt causes him to shake his head. ]
What worth do I have of the Maker to bring you back? I care for you so much, yet I feel I do not deserve your faith and support.
[ Again, he reminds himself that she is right. He does this to make a point, to set an example to others who may feel the same as he has. It is not lost on him that he has found faith in a Mage, but Neria has always been a special woman among others. ]
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[ She is right. He knows in his heart that she is right that he does this for a greater cause. But to know that he might affect the Inquisition in a negative manner hurts him far more than the pains that wrack him. Yet it isn't just Neria that has faith in him, as Kaia has said much the same. They all support his decision, do not believe that he is causing problems within the cause and he trembles in belief that he does not deserve such valuable friends. When Cullen looks upon Neria and sees such concern and passion in her eyes, he thinks to himself that he hardly deserves her companionship either. ]
[ But she stops him from moving towards the vial, brings him to find balance against the wall again where their hands entangle and latch as they always have. Still, there is hurt in his eyes, and doubt causes him to shake his head. ]
What worth do I have of the Maker to bring you back? I care for you so much, yet I feel I do not deserve your faith and support.
[ Again, he reminds himself that she is right. He does this to make a point, to set an example to others who may feel the same as he has. It is not lost on him that he has found faith in a Mage, but Neria has always been a special woman among others. ]