[ I'm not going anywhere. Those words hit him deeply, echo in his mind and stay there and it puts his mind at ease. Any kind of relief is held onto and so are each and every word that falls from her lips. His surroundings seem so... Distant, untouchable, yet he finds some form of support and realness in Neria's touch. Eventually, he finds himself able to focus on her and only her, where Cullen allows himself to get lost in her gaze and her kind words. ]
[ The Inquisition depends on him, the Inquisitor depends on him and there are so many that carry faith in him. Their trust means the world to him, and it pains him to think he could even partially let them down. But Neria speaks otherwise, and Cullen has always held her opinion as high as his arms could possibly reach. ]
[ If he turns back to lyrium, he backs down on everything he stands for. He shows those around him that he can't follow through with his own goals, and that is not an option. No matter how much pain he is in, no matter how horrible the nightmares and the hallucinations have been, he has a point to make. And he wishes to be as far away from the things The Order has done as humanly possible. ]
[ For a moment, Cullen is silent, just taking time to look directly at Neria. The pain in his gaze is still there, but overtime it strengthens. Cullen's brow furrows, serious painting his features as he squeezes her hands. ]
I want to keep going.
[ To do otherwise would be to do him and everyone else a disservice. ]
I will persevere until these binds have truly been broken.
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[ The Inquisition depends on him, the Inquisitor depends on him and there are so many that carry faith in him. Their trust means the world to him, and it pains him to think he could even partially let them down. But Neria speaks otherwise, and Cullen has always held her opinion as high as his arms could possibly reach. ]
[ If he turns back to lyrium, he backs down on everything he stands for. He shows those around him that he can't follow through with his own goals, and that is not an option. No matter how much pain he is in, no matter how horrible the nightmares and the hallucinations have been, he has a point to make. And he wishes to be as far away from the things The Order has done as humanly possible. ]
[ For a moment, Cullen is silent, just taking time to look directly at Neria. The pain in his gaze is still there, but overtime it strengthens. Cullen's brow furrows, serious painting his features as he squeezes her hands. ]
I want to keep going.
[ To do otherwise would be to do him and everyone else a disservice. ]
I will persevere until these binds have truly been broken.